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Philosophy, Cosmology & Religion
GA 215

13 September 1922, Dornach

8. Ordinary and Higher Consciousness

Since I plan to describe the problem of human death and the soul's immortality in relation to the Christ and Christianity's development, it will be necessary today for me to throw light once again from a different viewpoint on some of the topics I have already presented here.

When we look at the two conditions of waking and sleeping that alternate in daily human life, we find that during sleep, in regard to ordinary consciousness, man's sense perception is suspended and that what he experiences in his soul life as thinking, feeling and willing is also extinguished. Everything that we as human beings sum up as our “self” when we are awake is actually extinguished.

All that is here extinguished will now be rekindled bit by bit through imagination, inspiration and intuition. Meditation must first deal with ordinary thinking in order to produce imaginative thinking. I have described how thoughts are employed so that through meditating imaginative perception is attained. Particularly concerning the problem of death, it is necessary to clarify still further what is experienced on the path of initiation knowledge, for only then does it become clear what kind of a relationship man acquires in regard to his physical body and his soul-spiritual being when death occurs.

When thinking is used in meditation in the manner I have described it, the first experience of a person is that he actually cannot think for a while as he feels himself with his whole soul to be outside the physical organization. To a degree, thinking is, as it were, for a short time forgotten. It takes a certain amount of courage, inner energy, and also a certain presence of mind to experience this moment with full awareness. But then, as he awakens to renewed awareness, he notices that he experiences a much stronger activity of thought in his soul than he has had earlier. Thinking begins again.

Man progresses in the following way. To start he has his ordinary consciousness—I emphasize that ordinary consciousness is retained during genuine imagination—, then he must find his way into the other form of consciousness, and back again. While the ordinary, earthly view of things is naturally preserved as far as ordinary consciousness is concerned, in this other state of mind that man can enter he loses the capacity, so to speak, to produce thoughts. A stronger activity of thought sets in, however, as meditation is continued, a more pronounced, inner thought experience is acquired. In ordinary consciousness the thoughts that are experienced have to do mostly with the outer sense world and memories. Also, there are dim thoughts that arise out of any number of emotional experiences. Now, in this higher state of consciousness, man possesses a thinking with which he can call up into awareness in active thoughts the course of his own life from birth to the present moment in the manner I have described. This, however, has to do with a deeper layer of the course of man's life. I have already mentioned that they are not the memories a person also has in ordinary consciousness, these are on a deeper level. Man actually sees into an etheric process that builds up, saturates and penetrates, indeed, has always penetrated the physical organization. Everything that has occurred since birth in the physical body as growth was produced in it—how the separate organs were plastically formed, how our capacities of thinking, feeling and willing were drawn out of the depths of the bodily organization, everything connected with organic life that is otherwise hidden from consciousness—all of this shoots up in the form of active, inwardly experienced, substantial thoughts. In a certain sense man passes from ordinary thinking across an abyss to a thinking that experiences its own etheric body.

In developing imaginative thinking in this way, strict attention must be paid to what escapes you during the moments when you are within this imaginative thinking. The first thing you actually lose are your memories. You have the memories in ordinary consciousness, but alongside this ordinary consciousness, the other imaginative consciousness develops. In it, no memories exist. I ask you to clarify this to yourselves through the following explanation. When you recall anything as in all experiences of ordinary consciousness, you actually live in the present. You perceive what confronts you at the present moment and you think thoughts about it, and if you remember something of the past you nevertheless have before you in your mind a picture in the present moment that merely points to the past. Hence, ordinary consciousness experiences the present. Imaginative consciousness experiences its own life's course in such a way that the individual stages are surveyed all at once as if the things existing in time were spread out in space. Just as you experience one thing alongside another simultaneously in sense perception, so you now experience your own past on earth, all at once. Time becomes like space. The events you have lived through in your thirtieth, eighteenth, tenth, seventh or fifth year stand before the soul side by side.

In this way the experiences of imaginative consciousness differ from those of ordinary consciousness. Ordinary consciousness lives in the present, for the past it only has its memories. Imaginative consciousness experiences different times but in such a way that these time periods appear simultaneously before the soul. I said that recollections, the memory thoughts, slip away first. This is really the case. In imaginative consciousness man does not possess a memory or recollections, faculties that in his ordinary consciousness are a great help to him in life. It goes without saying that the capacity of memory in his normal human nature remains as it was because the ordinary human being remains unchanged alongside the new faculty. But man cannot remember his newly acquired imaginative experience of the ordinary course of his life. Let us assume that at a given moment a person experiences his life's course in imaginative consciousness. If in three days he wants to relive it again, he will not be able to recall what he has experienced today. He must repeat the same efforts that led him to experience the course of his life. Again, he must do the exercises that lead to this experience. Just as a real, physical object cannot actually be present in your memory—you have to walk over again to where it is located—so what you now experience, namely your etheric body, cannot simply be called up by memory for it is a living reality. It has to be summoned anew again and again.

This is something that disappoints many people who do such soul exercises. They set about doing them and achieve and see something. They assume that they can retain this view, that they can call it up again any time in memory. They are unable to do this and are disillusioned. The efforts have to be renewed each time in order to produce the experiences inwardly again. Let me give an example. Assume that a person gives a lecture, basing his talk on the new science of meditation. He lectures in such a way that he has not turned everything into abstract ideas but rather speaks out of living perception. He therefore cannot prepare himself by memorizing what he has in mind. Matters pertaining to the physical world can be memorized but not those relating to imaginative consciousness, for they always have to be produced anew. A person can indeed prepare himself, but this preparation is a kind of exercise. It is like acquiring a skill through practice. Earnest, constant meditation and practice help you to bring forth what you want from the supersensible world. But it must be produced in the present moment, it must arise instantly, if it is to come out of the spiritual world in truly alive form. It then contains the immediate echo of the spiritual in its formulation, its expression. Forgive me if I mention something personal here. I have perhaps spoken already thirty or forty times about one subject. It makes it no easier for me to speak on it for the thirtieth time. It is just as hard as it was the first time, for it is always the same process again. As a basis for producing such material a person needs composure and quiet so that the subject can arise out of a calm soul. Perhaps it is unnecessary, but to make myself clear I might add that in this regard an audience that expects a person to lecture on some aspect of the spiritual world is often really cruel to him—naturally the present audience is always excepted. It may be acceptable in a professorial lecture but not in a spiritual one that any number of persons come up prior to a lecture and ask all kinds of questions without considering at all that in the next moment facts from the spiritual world are to be brought forth.

In this way I have sought to describe to you the subjective experience of one who has imaginative consciousness. Because a person knows within his own mind how this active, living thinking comes to the surface, which now has as its content his own life's course, he also understands the nature of ordinary thinking. From the vantage point of imaginative consciousness he can now look back on ordinary thinking and arrive at the realization that in itself it has no reality at all. Actually, everyone lives in imagination. He does so unconsciously, carrying this substantial thinking within himself. But because he has not strengthened his soul forces sufficiently, his soul is too weak to lift into consciousness what is within him. When he wants to think, therefore, he always takes hold of his physical body. That becomes for him the basis of ordinary consciousness. But what actually happens there?

Because this inner activity—which even in ordinary consciousness is unconscious imagination—turns to the physical organism, it slips right into it. This unconscious imagination of which man knows nothing, which remains unconscious until it lights up in imaginative knowledge as active thinking, slips in ordinary consciousness into the physical organism and makes use of it. Then, as imaginative consciousness, which does not know what it is since it remains unconscious, it is reflected in the form of inner mirror-reflections. These, then, are the ordinary thoughts. They have as little reality as mirrored reflections have in relation to the objects standing before a mirror. Something is reflected back to us from our physical body, and these are the thoughts that arise in ordinary consciousness, merely mirror images. He who experiences these thoughts, therefore, experiences nothing substantial. There is no strength, no life in these thoughts of ordinary consciousness. At the moment, however, when active thinking sets in through imagination there is substance in thinking. In every imaginative thought there is substance and energy. You know that with this imaginative thinking you live within a force like the one that brought you from the state of childhood to that of a grown human being.

When a person works his way through to imaginative thinking, he actually passes to begin with from ordinary, physical reality to etheric reality. But in doing so he now receives the first insight into the physical body. He sees it as a reflecting apparatus that throws the thoughts back to the human being. Along with this, man begins to approach the problem of death, for it is not until his physical body becomes for him an external object that he can consider the problem of death. If man actually still exists as a being after death, he is quite certainly not present in his physical body. If, therefore, he wants to solve the problem of death while he is alive, he must have his physical body outside himself and view it as objectively as is the case, relatively speaking, when the body is beside or outside the human entity in death.

This characterizes the first step toward solving the problem of death. In the second part of today's lecture we shall discuss what else is required.


On the basis of a perception such as I have described to you, man is really in a position to judge how the soul-spiritual in the human being relates to the corporeal-physical. Not until he can objectively survey the physical organization, the etheric body and the soul-spiritual by means of the imaginative as well as the subsequent methods of super-sensible cognition, can he perceive how the two parts conduct themselves in the various stages of life. It is therefore of immense importance to bear in mind that in the super-sensible perception of which I am speaking here man retains the ordinary consciousness he possesses in everyday, waking life alongside all the other perceptual experiences. Already in imaginative consciousness, when he confronts something of his past life—for instance, the manner in which certain traits appeared in connection with the processes of growth when he was still a child of nine or ten, how moral tendencies, etc., arose—he perceives all this because he has before him the unity of the physical and soul nature at age nine or ten. He observes what took place then in the organism. But at the same time, he must retain his everyday consciousness. This means that he must now have this view of the ninth or tenth year of his life which reveals something that otherwise remains entirely unconscious; on the other hand, at his own discretion, he must be able to bring to mind instantaneously the memories that he has in ordinary consciousness, which carry him back in the normal way to his ninth or tenth year. Man must always be able to compare the one with the other, the higher with the ordinary consciousness. In the same way that he usually passes from one thought to another he must pass back and forth between an experience in imaginative consciousness and one in ordinary consciousness.

This characteristic of the higher consciousness referred to here is especially important. Those people who judge anthroposophical research only from the outside frequently believe that what appears as imagination can be dismissed like the hallucinations of some visionary. But you must become aware of the radical distinction that exists between true imagination and a vision. A vision certainly conveys a pictorial content also, but man is completely bound up in his vision. While the vision goes on, his consciousness has transformed itself into it and he cannot go back and forth at will from the vision to his ordinary consciousness. In contrast, a person who experiences imaginative consciousness has not transformed his ordinary consciousness into a vision, he has enriched it with imagination. He has added what he already possesses in ordinary consciousness to what he has attained in imagination. A person with imaginative consciousness therefore firmly rejects the common visionary experience, but he can also discern the visionary's predicament in life. For, whoever has achieved the heights of perception indicated here can observe in detail how a soul is inwardly active, in what way it employs the physical organism so that the body can reflect the thoughts back to it.

The person experiencing imagination and inspiration is familiar with the soul's relationship to the physical body in normal consciousness. He therefore can also form a judgement about a visionary. In the case of a visionary the soul has not become free of the body. The person who possesses imaginative consciousness knows what it means for the soul to be free of the physical body, for he has actually lifted the soul out of the body and has driven it into activity. When he observes a visionary, however, he sees that such a person's soul is submerged more within the physical body than is the case when it perceives the outer world with ordinary consciousness.

This is the difference between a person who has imaginative consciousness and the visionary. The visionary immerses himself more deeply into his body's functions than one does in ordinary life, while in imagination man actually emerges out of the physical organization. But at the same time, the ordinary soul content in the physical organism is consciously retained. If the vital significance of this difference is not recognized, if imagination is not kept under rigorous control by ordinary thinking which is retained side by side with imagination, the latter will always be confused with visionary activity that has no accompanying control, for there a man simply descends further into his physical body, and what appears to him as his vision is perhaps only a passing indisposition of his liver or stomach which was already present in ordinary life, but into which he has now submerged himself.

On the other hand, the imaginations of a person with imaginative consciousness have nothing to do with his bodily organs. He consciously looks into a part of his soul of which he was previously unaware. Imaginative consciousness therefore does not lead away from ordinary consciousness to something visionary, as some people believe. Rather, the schooling, the exercises for cultivating imaginative consciousness are a precise antidote for all uncontrollable, visionary elements. You do not develop in the direction of visions but in the opposite direction. The goal is to become free of the physical organization, and, in addition, to be able to utilize the soul in imagination, to start with the etheric organism, in order to arrive at a substantial, real thinking. In ordinary life, the physical body represents substantiality and what you possess in addition to it are mirror images in thinking that have no substance, no real, inner activity. It is precisely the contrast between the supersensible insights referred to here, and the visionary life, that makes it abundantly clear what is meant here by imagination, inspiration, and intuition in the higher consciousness.

Again, you see how you can gradually learn to comprehend the relationship of the soul-spiritual to the physical bodily nature by means of such perception. You realize that visionary activity can arise when someone's soul descends more deeply into the physical body during earthly life. But you can also understand what it implies to be outside your physical body, and what the soul experience is like at a time when you are outside your body. By means of this psychic-spiritual experience outside the body you sense and experience in advance how you must live when you no longer have a physical body. This means that the problem of death is solved within physical earth existence, for you must be able to live in a condition in which you will find yourself one day when you no longer possess your physical body. I ask you to understand that it is my aim to show how the problem of death can be approached and characterized with the greatest discernment, for this problem is nowadays dealt with so often in an amateurish fashion. But I want to make it clear that, above all in anthroposophical research, all the circumspection in thinking that could be demanded is indeed used to consider this problem. For this reason, I have not hesitated to formulate today's lecture in a more exact way so as to have a good basis for comprehending the problem of death. More concerning this will follow in the third part of today's considerations.

If we acquire a view of man's soul-spiritual constitution on the one side and his physical-bodily organization on the other then when we rise to imaginative, inspirational perception, and so on, we can survey the relationship that exists between the two—as I said earlier—in any given situation of man's life. Several days ago, I described how, in descending from the soul-spiritual world, man works on the creation of his own physical organization, how it then falls away from him and how he finds it again in another way through conception and birth. I described furthermore how the problem of birth appears when it is viewed from the standpoint of pre-earthly existence. Now, let us look more into earthly existence, as it is placed between the events of birth and death, for if we want to arrive gradually at an understanding of death, we must be able to link death to birth or conception by means of earthly life.

Particularly, when we observe the way the soul-spiritual in pre-earthly existence relates to what a man bears as physical body in earthly life, we can arrive at the realization that one part of the soul-spiritual—a part that man also possesses in pre-earthly existence—is completely transformed due to conception and birth. While it is still present in pre-earthly life, it now actually disappears; it is the part out of which thinking has developed. It is there in pre-earthly life but disappears as a soul-spiritual element the moment man arrives on the earth. Traces of it remain in the infant, but gradually this part of soul-spiritual life disappears entirely. What has happened to it?

The part that here disappears has been transformed into the life and form of the human head organization. Now understand this correctly: It is entirely wrong to believe that the whole soul-spiritual configuration of man exists as such in pre-earthly life and then, on earth, it receives a kind of house by means of the body into which it enters and lives. It is quite wrong to think in this way about that part of the soul I now referred to above. That part fades and disappears; it is transformed into a really physical material thing, namely our head organization. The life and form of our head organization is a physical metamorphosis of a soul-spiritual element of our pre-earthly existence. Look at your head organization. I do not mean now merely the head that falls off when one is beheaded, but the head with its whole inner content, with all the nerves running into it, and the blood circulation insofar as it is cerebral blood circulation. All this is a result of the transformation of a part of man's pre-earthly sojourn. This part of pre-earthly soul life disappears into the head organization. As a result of the fact that our head organization represents a real metamorphosis of what we possess in our pre-earthly life, and because we behold in the human head a true physical replica of our pre-earthly existence, this head is a real mirror for reflecting thoughts. This has come about because the head has formed and enlivened itself as a physical organism out of the experienced thoughts of the pre-earthly life. This way it is a mirror for the thoughts we form by means of all the sense perceptions.

By contrast—I might say, on the other side of the soul's life—another part of the soul emerges that passes in man through conception and birth and does not transform itself into the physical corporeality but comes only into loose contact with man's metabolic and limb systems. It is that part of the soul life that is ordinarily experienced in its reflections, as will. Compare the will with the conceptual life, with thinking. As human beings we are always fully conscious in the life of thoughts when we are awake. Indeed, “awake” actually means “living in thoughts.” It is not so with the will. Take the simplest act of will, the raising of an arm or hand. How much of this are you fully conscious of? In waking consciousness, you first have the idea: I will raise my hand.—Then something happens that runs its course in the depths of your bodily organization. You may experience all kinds of undefined feelings, shreds of emotions and the like, but what you next experience clearly and in full wakefulness is the result: The arm is raised—you can see it. Ordinary consciousness is as unaware of what takes place in the depths of the organism in the actual sphere of the will between the resolve to do something and the accomplished action as it remains unconscious of events during sleep. We are awake in our thought life; in our actual life of will we sleep even when we are awake.

This partial life of sleep that becomes evident in our will is therefore a sleep that also permeates our waking condition. We are always asleep in one part of our soul even when we are awake, namely, in that part where the will is rooted. Now this is the part of the soul that is not transformed into the physical organization at the time it undergoes human conception and birth. One part of the soul reappears in the physical world after birth as man's head organization. The metabolic- and limb-system, on the other hand, is not a direct replica of that other part of the soul; it is born out of the physical world. The will-segment of the soul has linked itself with it in a loose way; for this reason, the metabolic-and limb-system does not mirror what the soul experiences. This is why man is asleep in his will and also in relation to his metabolic- and limb-system even when he is awake. When this part of the soul is observed by supersensible perception in its relationship to the physical organization, it bears a strong similarity to the relationship of the ego and astral body, the whole soul, to the entire physical organization during sleep. Indeed, man is a much more complicated being than is usually believed. There are certain descriptions of the supersensible which simply state: When a person is awake, his soul-spiritual nature is within his physical-etheric organization, when he sleeps it is outside. But the matter is not as simple as this; at most, one can speak in this way of the head organization, but not of the rest of man's corporeality. For in regard to this remaining organization, a part of the soul sleeps even when the human being is awake.

This part of the soul's life that is asleep and arises from the dark depths of man's organization only in certain mental images is brought into view the moment a person attains to intuition, for, as I have shown, intuition is a result of will exercises. In that way man learns to see into what is otherwise always concealed in waking life; he learns to look into the mysteries of the human will. The human will is a mystery even for waking life; it is revealed partly by inspiration, but only intuition finally unveils it. Paradoxical as it may sound, once man has succeeded in perceiving the true nature of his own will he also has insight into the divine spiritual world. In the head organization the spiritual world is contained only in physical metamorphosis, not much of the spiritual world as such can be discovered there. The human head is actually the least spiritual part of man. But the remaining physical organization contains the unchanged soul life the way it was when man dwelt in pre-earthly life without physical and etheric bodies. In this soul life that lives concealed in the will, man is wholly spirit even between birth and death. Through intuition one can now discern the nature of this spirit.

The spirit that is unveiled to intuition as the element that underlies the will appears to this perception as the reservoir for everything a person has undergone during earth life in the form of intellectual activities of the mind and soul-initiatives, as moral inclinations and impulses in the soul. As I have already indicated from another standpoint, this is revealed as the younger part of the soul, the part that remains in an embryonic state in our present earth life and is at the beginning of its development. If we look at this part of the soul, we behold something in man's inner being that heads toward death in order to be actually born only at death, just as the soul in pre-earthly existence approaches earth life in order to be born into it through conception and birth. Beneath our will lives the soul embryo which reveals its embryonic life when intuitive perception beholds its true nature. We can tell by its nature how it is born to a new spiritual life at death, just as we can tell by the appearance of the human soul in pre-earthly life that it enters earthly existence through birth.

In order to gain insight into physical existence, it is therefore our concern to become acquainted—to begin with in supersensible existence—with the soul being that underlies the will. I shall conclude these observations in the last, the fourth part, and they will lead us tomorrow to a summation of the problem of death in relation with the questions concerning the Christ.

Through higher perception man gains a view of the evolution of his eternal being through pre-earthly existence, earth life and the life after death. Now, however, to unprejudiced observation a mighty riddle arises. It arises when we see how ego consciousness is acquired. From yesterday's lecture you may have surmised that ego consciousness is dependent upon the physical organization, for it originates only at that point in the course of human earth development when man in ordinary consciousness can utilize nothing else besides his physical organism. Particularly here, imaginative, inspired and intuitive knowledge make it abundantly clear that we as human beings attain our ego consciousness initially in the physical world between birth and death and that the attainment of this ego consciousness is linked to the use of the physical body. The body, however, is taken from us at death.

To a higher perception such as I described again today, the eternal nature of the soul life that was experienced by earth humanity prior to the development of ego consciousness can only appear as a soul life that passes from pre-earthly through earthly to post-earthly existence—in other words, through repeated earth lives. Concerning what man acquires as ego consciousness, however, we can say with absolute certainty: You attained it through the use of your physical body; indeed, only in the course of humanity's evolution—at the time when the Mystery of Golgotha entered human evolution—did you learn to make use of your physical body in such a way that ego consciousness lit up within you.

It is therefore equally certain that inasmuch as we gain ego consciousness by means of the physical body we must fear that we shall lose it at death. This is one of the problems of death. Even if the eternal part of our being in thought, feeling and will has revealed itself to us and we behold it in its metamorphosis as the element appearing only as a mirror image in thinking—actually it is the vanished soul life that has been transformed into the head organization—even if we see in the will the shadow of what leads an embryonic soul life in the rest of the physical organization and will only come to birth at death, even if we are able to look clearly into the soul life in this regard, we are still bound to become fearful. Indeed, we do not become afraid because of an insignificant emotional attitude, but because of our insight when we face the question: What do we manage to retain of the physical organism beyond death, for the physical body decays after death? If we have gained our ego consciousness by means of the body, then the scientifically justified fear arises: How do we carry our ego consciousness through death?

Only the Mystery of Golgotha can answer this question. Man could never carry his ego consciousness beyond death unless this ego consciousness, having developed in the physical body, unites with the Christ Who holds and supports it when it would otherwise melt away from the human soul along with the physical body. Ego consciousness has been attained by means of the physical body. In death, along with the physical body, it would leave the soul, if it were not bound up with the Christ Being in the sense of Paul's words, “Not I but the Christ in me,”—for the Christ takes our ego and carries it through death.

In the following lecture I will describe in detail how this takes place and I will show how the Christ is that Being Who makes it possible for us to preserve our ego consciousness and carry it through the portal of death.

Only anthroposophical research as meant here reveals the whole significance that the Christ event has for human life. After all, the significance of such insight already begins in the case of ordinary philosophy! Ordinary philosophy is only awakened to an inner life and gains a perception concerning itself when it can be nourished by imaginative knowledge. Think of what I said at the beginning of my lecture. When we advance through meditation to imaginative perception we cross over an abyss, as it were. Our thinking ceases, a state of non-thinking exists between ordinary thinking and the active, life-filled thinking of imagination. Several philosophers have experienced this non-thinking—for instance, Augustine and Descartes—but they were unable to interpret it correctly. They spoke of the doubt that arises at the start of philosophical thinking. This doubt that Augustine and Descartes spoke about is only the reflection, brought into ordinary consciousness, of this condition of non-thinking that man finds himself in between ordinary thinking and imaginative thinking. Since neither Augustine nor Descartes had submerged their souls into this actual non-thinking, they did not come to the true experience, only the reflection, of what a person experiences when his thinking, particularly the thoughts of memory, ceases between ordinary and imaginative thinking. The doubt of Augustine and Descartes is only the reflected image in ordinary consciousness of this experience that does not appear until the transition into imaginative consciousness. Thus, when we observe it in the light of imaginative philosophy, we can correctly interpret what appears vaguely in the mere philosophy of ideas.

Likewise, we have seen how a person confronts the course of his life as a unity and how, to a perception that enables him to be consciously alive in his ether body, events that run their course in time are seen to stand side by side. Through this insight, events that ordinarily occur one after the other are seen side by side like you normally see the objects in space. Bergson, for example, felt this when he formulated his idea of “duration.” This idea of duration plays a prominent role in his philosophy, but because of the manner in which he conceived it, it is only an inkling of the truth. The truth is the imaginative view of time as simultaneity. Bergson only arrived at the abstract feeling that if he entered more deeply into the matter, he could now, in the present, reach beyond this world and experience duration as such. But since Bergson would not approach a form of anthroposophical perception, he again arrived only at a reflected image of what a person experiences with imaginative perception in regard to time as simultaneity. He called this elusive element, experienced as a reflected image, duration, durée. It plays a prominent role in Bergson's philosophy.

Regardless of which aspect of philosophy you focus upon, it becomes evident that philosophy will only attain substance and life when this substance is grasped in the way it was done today. I have already indicated that cosmology and religious knowledge also gain substance in this way, and I will elaborate on the matter further in regard to the questions about the Christ in the next few days. I will show that for man today all higher perception leads basically to an appeal by his own being to the Mystery of Golgotha. And when man's will aspires to reach the Mystery of Golgotha and, once again, the Christ Being enters man's consciousness in His complete, supersensible reality, then modern supersensible perception will lead by means of a spiritual philosophy and cosmology to a firm foundation not only of supersensible life in general but of a spiritual Christianity.

Das Ereignis des Todes im Zusammenhang mit dem Christus

[ 1 ] Indem ich dazu übergehe, in den nächsten Vorträgen Ihnen zu schildern das Problem des Todes des Menschen, der Seelenunsterblichkeit im Zusammenhange mit dem Christus und der Entwickelung des Christentums, wird es heute notwendig sein, daß ich einiges von dem, was ich hier schon vorgebracht habe, von einem anderen Gesichtspunkte aus noch einmal beleuchte.

[ 2 ] Wenn wir auf die beiden Zustände sehen, die im täglichen Menschenleben abwechseln, den Wachzustand und den Schlafzustand, dann tritt uns zunächst für das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein das entgegen, daß der Mensch während des Schlafzustandes ausgeschaltet hat seine Sinneswahrnehmung, aber auch gewissermaßen ausgelöscht hat, was er im Seelenleben als Denken, Fühlen und Wollen erlebt. Alles, was wir im Wachzustande als Menschen zusammenfassen als unser Selbst, ist eigentlich im Schlafzustande ausgelöscht.

[ 3 ] Das, was hier ausgelöscht ist, wird nun Stück für Stück durch die Imagination, Inspiration und Intuition wiederum entzündet. Zuerst muß sich die Meditation, um das imaginative Denken hervorzurufen, an das gewöhnliche Denken wenden. Ich habe dargestellt, wie man Gedanken verwendet, um meditierend zur imaginativen Erkenntnis zu kommen. Gerade mit Bezug auf das Problem des Todes ist es notwendig, daß noch einmal klarer dasjenige hingestellt wird, was die Initiationserkenntnis auf ihrem Wege erlebt, weil dadurch eben erst anschaulich wird, in welches Verhältnis der Mensch zu seinem physischen Leib und zu seinem geistig-seelischen Wesen mit dem Eintritt des Todes kommt.

[ 4 ] Wenn man in der Art, wie ich es geschildert habe, das Denken behandelt, so macht man zuerst die Erfahrung, daß, indem man sich mit seiner ganzen Seele außerhalb des physischen Organismus fühlt, man eigentlich eine Weile nicht denken kann. Das Denken entfällt einem gewissermaßen für eine kurze Weile. Es gehört ein gewisser Mut dazu, eine innere Energie und auch eine gewisse Geistesgegenwart, um diesen Moment in voller Besonnenheit zu erleben. Dann aber bemerkt man, wie man aufwachend in sich eine viel stärkere seelische Aktivität erlebt, als man früher gehabt hat. Das Denken beginnt wiederum. Der Fortschritt liegt also so, daß man zuerst das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein hat — ich bemerke ausdrücklich: dieses gewöhnliche Bewußtsein bleibt bei dem wirklichen Imaginieren erhalten -, aber man muß ja immer sich hinüberleben in den anderen Zustand und sich wieder zurückleben. In diesem anderen Zustande aber — für das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein behält man natürlich das gewöhnliche irdische Bild -, in diesem anderen Zustande, in den man eintreten kann, verliert man gewissermaßen die Fähigkeit, Gedanken hervorzubringen; aber es tritt beim weiteren Meditieren eine stärkere Aktivität auf, und man bekommt jetzt ein stärkeres inneres Gedankenerleben. Und während für das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein die Gedanken so erlebt werden, daß sie zumeist Gedanken über die äußere Sinneswelt sind und Erinnerungsgedanken, dumpfe Gedanken, die aus allerlei Gefühlserlebnissen und Emotionen heraufkommen, hat man jetzt ein Denken, durch das man in der Art, wie ich es auch schon geschildert habe, den eigenen Lebenslauf, den man hier auf der Erde von der Geburt bis jetzt verbracht hat, in aktiven Gedanken in das Bewußtsein aufnehmen kann, und zwar ist es eine tiefere Schicht des Lebenslaufes, um die es sich da handelt. Ich habe schon gesagt, es sind nicht die Erinnerungen, die man auch im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein hat, sondern es ist eine tiefere Schicht. Man sieht tatsächlich hinein in ein ätherisches Geschehen, das den physischen Organismus aufbaut, durchsetzt und durchdringt und ihn immer durchdrungen hat. Alles, was sich da vollzogen hat seit der Geburt, indem im physischen Organismus Wachstum bewirkt wurde, die einzelnen Organe plastisch ausgebildet wurden, unsere denkerischen Fähigkeiten, unsere Gefühlsfähigkeiten und unsere Willensfähigkeiten aus den Tiefen der Organisation heraufgeholt wurden, alles, was im Zusammenhange mit einem realen Leben, das sonst dem Bewußtsein verborgen ist, das schießt auf in Form von aktiven, innerlich erlebten substantiellen Gedanken. Man geht also gewissermaßen von dem gewöhnlichen Denken über einen Abgrund hinüber zu einem Denken, das den eigenen Ätherleib erlebt.

[ 5 ] Man muß, indem man in dieser Weise das imaginative Denken enthüllt, sehr stark darauf achten, was einem für die Momente, wo man in diesem imaginativen Denken ist, entfällt. Das erste, was einem entfällt, sind eigentlich die Erinnerungen. Man hat die Erinnerungen im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein, aber neben dem gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein entwickelt sich dieses andere, das imaginative Bewußtsein. In diesem gibt es keine Erinnerungen. Wie das ist, bitte ich Sie, durch folgendes sich klarzumachen: Auch wenn man sich erinnert, wie in allen Erlebnissen des gewöhnlichen Bewußtseins, lebt man eigentlich in der Gegenwart. Man nimmt das wahr, was gegenwärtig vor einem steht, man denkt Gedanken über das Gegenwärtige, und wenn man sich erinnert an Vergangenes, so hat man ja auch im gegenwärtigen Augenblick ein Bild, das nur auf die Vergangenheit hinweist. Also das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein erlebt Gegenwart. Das imaginative Bewußtsein erlebt den. eigenen Lebenslauf so, daß die einzelnen Partien auf einmal übersehen werden, wie wenn also die Dinge, die in der Zeit sind, so wären wie im Raum. Die Geschehnisse, die man im dreißigsten, achtzehnten, zehnmung ein Ding neben dem anderen gleichzeitig erlebt, so erlebt man seine eigene irdische Vergangenheit gleichzeitig. Die Zeit wird wie der Raum. Die Geschehnisse, die man im dreißigsten, achtzehnten, zehnten, siebenten, fünften Jahre erlebt hat, stehen da vor der Seele; nebeneinander stehen sie.

[ 6 ] Dadurch unterscheiden sich diese Erlebnisse des imaginativen Bewußtseins von denen des gewöhnlichen Bewußtseins. Das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein lebt in der Gegenwart; für die Vergangenheit hat es nur die Erinnerung. Das imaginative Bewußtsein durchlebt Zeiten, aber so, daß die Zeiten vor der Seele auf einmal stehen. Die Erinnerungen, die Erinnerungsgedanken, sagte ich, entfallen einem zuerst. Es ist in der Tat so. Das, was einem im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein außerordentlich viel im Leben hilft, nämlich, daß man ein Gedächtnis hat, daß man Erinnerungen hat, das hat man im imaginativen Bewußtsein nicht. Man behält selbstverständlich, weil man den natürlichen Menschen neben sich hat, das Erinnerungsvermögen im gewöhnlichen Menschen so, wie es vorhanden war; aber für das, was man neu hat, also den gewöhnlichen menschlichen Lebenslauf, hat man keine Erinnerung. Nehmen Sie an, ein Imaginierender erlebt in einem bestimmten Augenblick seinen Lebenslauf. In drei Tagen will er ihn wieder erleben. Da kann er sich nicht zurückerinnern an das, was er heute erlebt hat. Er muß wieder dieselben Verrichtungen machen, die ihn dazu führen, den Lebenslauf zu erleben. Er muß sich wieder hin-üben zu diesem Erleben. Geradeso wie ein reales physisches Ding nicht einfach für die Erinnerung einem da sein kann, sondern man wieder zu ihm hingehen muß, so kann man auch das, was man jetzt erlebt, nämlich seinen ätherischen Leib, nicht bloß durch die Erinnerung hervorrufen, denn es ist ein Reales; es muß immer wieder neu hervorgerufen werden.

[ 7 ] Das ist etwas, was viele, die solche Seelenübungen machen, enttäuscht. Sie nehmen ihre Übungen in Angriff, erreichen auch etwas, können etwas schauen. Sie glauben, daß ihnen nun dieses Schauen bleibt, daß sie es immer wieder in der Erinnerung hervorrufen können. Sie können es nicht und sie sind enttäuscht. Es müssen immer wieder Anstrengungen gemacht werden, um die Erlebnisse innerlich neuerdings zu produzieren. Ein Beispiel dafür. Nehmen Sie an, einer, der aus der neueren Meditationswissenschaft heraus spricht, hält einen Vortrag. Er hält ihn so, daß er nicht alles in abstrakte Ideen umgesetzt hat, sondern er wird aus der lebendigen Anschauung heraus reden. Daher kann er sich nicht so vorbereiten, daß er etwas, was er im Konzept hat, auswendig lernen würde. Man kann auswendig lernen die Dinge, die sich auf die physische Welt beziehen, aber man kann nicht die Dinge auswendig lernen, die sich auf ein imaginatives Bewußtsein beziehen, denn diese müssen immer wieder aufs neue produziert werden. Man kann sich auch vorbereiten, aber dieses Vorbereiten ist eine Art von Üben.

[ 8 ] Es ist so, wie wenn Sie durch ein Üben sich eine Fähigkeit aneignen. So hilft Ihnen das Durchmeditieren, das Durchüben für das, was Sie aus der übersinnlichen Welt hervorbringen wollen. Aber produziert werden muß es, wenn es wirklich aus der geistigen Welt heraus leben soll, im unmittelbaren Augenblick. Es muß entstehen im unmittelbaren Augenblick. Dann hat es in seinem Ausdruck, in seiner Formulierung den unmittelbaren Nachklang des Spirituellen. Sie verzeihen, wenn ich dabei als etwas Persönliches dieses vorbringe. Ich habe schon über ein Thema dreißig-, vierzigmal gesprochen. Es hilft mir gar nichts zu meiner Erleichterung, das dreißigste Mal über ein Thema zu sprechen. Es ist genau so schwer wie beim ersten Male; es handelt sich dabei immer wiederum um denselben Prozeß. Was man braucht, um eine Grundlage für dieses Produzieren zu haben, das ist Sammlung, Ruhe, damit aus der beruhigten Seele das Produzieren hervorgehen kann. Vielleicht wäre es nicht nötig, aber um mich zu verdeutlichen, möchte ich da doch die Bemerkung machen, daß in dieser Beziehung ein Auditorium gegen den, an den es Anspruch macht, daß er aus der spirituellen Welt etwas vorträgt, oftmals geradezu grausam ist, indem - selbstverständlich sind die Anwesenden immer ausgenommen -, was bei einem professoralen Vortrag ganz gut gehen mag, bei einem spirituellen Vortrag vorher alle möglichen Zuhörer kommen und alle möglichen Fragen stellen und gar keine Rücksicht darauf nehmen, daß im nächsten Augenblick Dinge aus der spirituellen Welt herausgeholt werden sollen.

[ 9 ] So habe ich versucht, das subjektive Erlebnis des Imaginierens Ihnen darzustellen. Dadurch, daß man in sich weiß, wie dieses aktive, dieses lebendige Denken, das nun den eigenen Lebenslauf zum Inhalt hat, hinauftaucht, dadurch weiß man auch, was seiner Wesenheit nach das gewöhnliche Denken ist. Man kann jetzt, vom imaginierenden Bewußtsein aus, auf dieses gewöhnliche Denken zurückschauen, und da kommt man zu der Erkenntnis: dieses gewöhnliche Denken hat ja in sich gar keine Realität. -— In Wirklichkeit imaginiert nämlich jeder Mensch. Er imaginiert unbewußt und hat dieses substantielle Denken in sich. Aber weil er die Seelenkräfte nicht genügend verstärkt hat, deshalb ist er seelisch zu schwach, um das, was da in ihm drinnen ist, ins Bewußtsein heraufzuholen, und so ergreift er, wenn er denken will, immer seinen physischen Leib. Der wird ihm die Grundlage für das gewöhnliche Denken. Aber was entsteht da eigentlich? Nun, indem diese innere Aktivität, die ein unbewußtes Imaginieren ist, auch beim gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein, sich an den physischen Organismus wendet, schlüpft sie in diesen physischen Organismus hinein. Das, was man nicht weiß, was unbewußt bleibt, was dann in der imaginativen Erkenntnis als aktives Denken heraufleuchtet, das schlüpft beim gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein in den physischen Organismus hinein, bedient sich desselben und es wird nun als das, was es ist und das nicht weiß, weil es unbewußt bleibt, zurückgeworfen als innere Spiegelbilder. Das sind die gewöhnlichen Gedanken. Sie haben ebensowenig eine Realität, wie Spiegelbilder eine Realität haben gegenüber den Dingen, die vor dem Spiegel stehen. Es wird uns etwas zurückreflektiert von unserem physischen Leib, und das sind die Gedanken, die ins gewöhnliche Bewußtsein kommen - lediglich Spiegelbilder. Wer sie daher erlebt, diese Gedanken, der erlebt in ihnen kein Substantielles. Es ist kein Saft und keine Kraft in diesen Gedanken des gewöhnlichen Bewußtseins. In dem Augenblick dagegen, wo das aktive Denken im Imaginieren eintritt, da ist Substanz im Denken. In jedem imaginierten Gedanken ist Substanz, ist Saft und Kraft drinnen. Man weiß: Man lebt mit diesem imaginierten Denken in einer solchen Kraft, wie die ist, die uns vom Kinde auf zum erwachsenen Menschen gemacht hat.

[ 10 ] Es ist eben der Übertritt von der gewöhnlichen Wirklichkeit zuerst in die ätherische Wirklichkeit, wenn man sich zum imaginativen Denken hindurchringt. Dadurch aber bekommt man jetzt den ersten Anflug zu einer Erkenntnis des physischen Leibes. Man sieht den physischen Leib an wie einen Spiegelapparat, der einem die Gedanken zurückwirft. Damit fängt man an, an das Problem des Todes heranzutreten, denn ehe man nicht seinen physischen Leib als Objekt hat, kann man nicht an das Problem des Todes herantreten. Ist der Mensch nach dem Tode noch wesenhaft vorhanden, so ist er ganz gewiß nicht in seinem physischen Leibe vorhanden. Und so muß man, wenn man während des Lebens das Problem des Todes lösen will, den physischen Leib so außer sich haben und ihn objektiv anschauen, wie man ihn relativ im Tode neben sich, außer sich hat. Das ist die Charakteristik dessen, wie man im ersten Anhub zu einer Lösung des Problems des Todes kommt. Was man dazu weiter braucht, soll im zweiten Teile unserer heutigen Betrachtung dargestellt werden.


[ 11 ] Durch eine solche Erkenntnis, wie ich sie Ihnen geschildert habe, kommt der Mensch in die Lage, wirklich beurteilen zu können, wie sich das Seelisch-Geistige im Menschen zu dem Körperlich-Physischen verhält. Erst dadurch, daß man mit der imaginativen und auch mit den folgenden Erkenntnismethoden des übersinnlichen Anschauens objektiv überschauen kann den physischen Organismus, den ätherischen Organismus und das Seelisch-Geistige, erst dadurch kann man auch erkennen, wie sich in den verschiedenen Lagen des Lebens die beiden Teile verhalten. Daher ist es von unermeßlicher Wichtigkeit, zu berücksichtigen, daß bei derjenigen übersinnlichen Erkenntnis, von der ich hier spreche, der Mensch das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein, das er sonst im tagwachen Leben hat, neben allen sonstigen Erkenntniserlebnissen beibehält. Wenn man also, schon im imaginativen Bewußtsein, irgend etwas aus seinem Lebenslauf vor sich hat, zum Beispiel die Art und Weise, wie, als man noch ein Kind im neunten oder zehnten Lebensjahr war, damals gewisse Anlagen aus den Wachstumsverhältnissen heraus sich gezeigt haben, wie moralische Neigungen und so weiter aufgetreten sind, so schaut man das ja an, indem man die Einheit des Physischen und des Seelischen in diesem neunten oder zehnten Lebensjahre vor sich hat. Man schaut hin, was sich da im Organismus mit dem neunten oder zehnten Lebensjahre abgespielt hat. Man muß aber daneben das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein beibehalten, das heißt, man muß jetzt das Hinschauen auf das neunte, zehnte Lebensjahr haben, das einem etwas überliefert, was sonst ganz unbewußt bleibt, und man muß andererseits sogleich durch Willkür den Übergang dazu finden, wie im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein vorzustellen die Erinnerungen, die einen zurückverweisen in der ganz gewöhnlichen Art auf sein neuntes, zehntes Lebensjahr. Man muß immer das eine mit dem anderen vergleichen können: höheres Bewußtsein und gewöhnliches Bewußtsein. So, wie man im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein von dem einen Gedanken zum anderen hinübergeht, so muß man von dem im imaginativen Bewußtsein Erlebten zu dem im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein Erlebten herüber- und hinübergehen.

[ 12 ] Diese Charakteristik des hier gemeinten höheren Bewußtseins ist ganz besonders wichtig. Alle diejenigen, welche die anthroposophische Forschung nur von außen beurteilen, glauben oftmals, was als Imagiination auftritt, könne abgewiesen werden wie irgendein Bewußtseinsinhalt eines Visionärs, eines Halluzinanten. Man muß aber den radikalen Unterschied bemerken, der zwischen der richtigen Imagination und der Vision besteht. Die Vision liefert allerdings dem Menschen auch einen bildhaften Inhalt, aber der Mensch geht ganz auf in seiner Vision. Während er diese Vision hat, hat sich sein Bewußtsein hinüberverwandelt in diese Vision, und er kann nicht willkürlich von der Vision zum gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein hin und zurück. Der Imaginierende dagegen hat nicht sein gewöhnliches Bewußtsein in eine Vision hineinverwandelt, sondern er hat das gewöhnliche Bewußtsein bereichert um die Imagination. Es ist einfach zu dem, was man im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein schon hat, das Imaginierte hinzugetreten. Daher weist gerade der Imaginierende das gewöhnliche Visionserlebnis weit von sich, aber er kann auch einsehen, in welcher Lebenssituation der Visionär ist. Denn wer die hier gemeinte Höhe des Erkennens erlangt hat, kann ganz genau anschauen, wie die Seele innerlich aktiv ist, wie sie sich des physischen Organismus bedient, damit er ihr die Gedanken zurückspiegele. Der Imaginierende und Inspirierte kennt die Art des Verhältnisses der Seele zum physischen Leibe im gewöhnlichen normalen Bewußtsein. Deshalb kann er auch den Visionär beurteilen. Beim Visionär ist das der Fall, daß die Seele nicht etwa freigeworden ist vom physischen Leibe. Der Imaginierende weiß, was das heißt, frei sein der Seele vom physischen Leibe, denn er hat die Seele wirklich herausgeholt aus dem physischen Leib und zur Aktivität getrieben. Wenn er aber den Visionär anschaut, so steckt bei diesem die Seele tiefer im physischen Leibe drinnen als sonst, wenn sie im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein die Außenwelt wahrnimmt.

[ 13 ] Das ist der Unterschied zwischen dem Imaginierenden und dem Visionär: Der Visionär taucht in seine Körperfunktionen tiefer ein, als man im gewöhnlichen Leben in sie eintaucht, während bei dem Imaginierenden ein wirkliches Heraustreten aus dem physischen Organismus der Fall ist, und es bleibt daneben der gewöhnliche Bestand der Seele in dem physischen Organismus bewußt erhalten. Wenn man diesen Unterschied nicht in seiner ganzen eminenten Bedeutung durchschaut, wird man immer das, was man in einer scharfen Kontrolle durch das gewöhnliche Denken neben sich hat, die Imagination, verwechseln eben mit dem visionären Leben, das gar keine Kontrolle neben sich hat, wo einfach der Mensch tiefer in seinen physischen Leib hinuntersteigt, so daß, was ihm als seine Visionen erscheint, vielleicht nur die Indispositionen seiner Leber oder seines Magens sind, die er schon im gewöhnlichen Leben hat, aber jetzt ist er in diese Indispositionen untergetaucht. Der Imaginierende dagegen hat in seinen Imaginationen nichts mit seinen Organen zu tun, aber er schaut bewußt hin auf einen Teil der Seele, der vorher unbewußt war. So führt das imaginierende Bewußtsein nicht von dem gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein ab und zu etwas Visionärem hin, wie manche glauben, sondern die Schulung, die Übung zum imaginativen Bewußtsein ist gerade ein Gegenmittel gegen alles unkontrollierbare Visionäre. Man entwickelt sich nicht nach der Richtung der Visionen hin, sondern nach der entgegengesetzten Richtung: frei zu werden vom physischen Organismus, zu dem physischen Organismus in der Imagination selbst das Seelische, zunächst das Ätherische, benutzen zu können, um zu einem substantiellen Erleben zu kommen. Im gewöhnlichen Leben ist das Substantielle der physische Leib, und was man über den physischen Leib hinaus hat, sind im Denken Spiegelbilder, die keine Substanz haben, die nicht eine innere wirkliche Aktivität haben. Gerade an dem Gegensatz der übersinnlichen Schauungen, wie sie hier gemeint sind, zu dem visionären Leben kann dasjenige ganz besonders deutlich werden, was eben unter dem Imaginierten, unter dem Inspirierten und unter der Intuition im höheren Bewußtsein hier gemeint ist. Wiederum sehen Sie dann, wie man durch eine solche Erkenntnis allmählich lernt, welches das Verhältnis des Seelisch-Geistigen zum Physisch-Leiblichen ist. Man sieht ein, wie ein visionäres Leben dann entsteht, wenn bei jemandem im Erdendasein die Seele tiefer heruntersteigt in den physischen Leib. Man sieht aber auch ein, was es heißt, außerhalb seines Leibes zu sein, und wie dann das seelische Erleben ist, wenn man außerhalb seines Leibes ist. Durch dieses psychisch-geistige Erleben außerhalb seines Leibes empfindet man und erlebt man vor, wie man leben muß, wenn man keinen physischen Leib mehr hat. Es handelt sich darum, das Problem des Todes innerhalb des physischen Erdendaseins zu lösen, indem man in einem Dasein leben muß, in dem man ist, wenn man einen physischen Leib nicht mehr hat. — Ich bitte Sie, zu begreifen, daß es mein Bestreben ist, zu zeigen, wie mit aller Vorsicht des Denkerischen. charakterisiert werden kann diese Hinlenkung zum Problem des Todes, denn das Problem des Todes wird ja heute vielfach in einer laienhaften Weise behandelt. Aber es soll anschaulich werden, wie gerade in der anthroposophischen Forschung beim Behandeln dieses Problems alle Vorsicht des Denkens, die man nur verlangen kann, wirklich auch angewendet wird. Deshalb habe ich nicht davor zurückgeschreckt, den heutigen Vortrag etwas exakter zu gestalten, damit für das Erfassen des Problems des Todes eine gute Grundlage da ist. Weiteres darüber soll im dritten Teile der heutigen Betrachtung folgen.


[ 14 ] Wenn man im Aufsteigen zur imaginativen, inspirierten Erkenntnis und so weiter eine Anschauung bekommt des Seelisch-Geistigen auf der einen Seite, des Physisch-Körperlichen auf der anderen Seite, so kann man für jede Lebenssituation des Menschen - so sagte ich - überschauen, in welchem Verhältnis das Seelisch-Geistige zum Physisch-Leiblichen steht. Ich habe vor einigen Tagen hier charakterisiert, wie im Herabsteigen aus der seelisch-geistigen Welt der Mensch an dem Zustandekommen seines eigenen physischen Organismus arbeitet, wie dieser ihm dann entfällt und wie er ihn durch Konzeption und Geburt wieder auf eine andere Weise findet. Da habe ich weiter dargestellt, wie sich das Problem der Geburt ausnimmt, wenn man es anschaut vom Gesichtspunkte des vorirdischen Daseins. Wollen wir jetzt einmal in diesem Moment mehr in das Erdendasein hereinschauen, denn dieses Erdendasein stellt sich ja hinein zwischen das Ereignis der Geburt und das Ereignis des Todes, und wenn man allmählich zum Verständnis des Todes kommen will, muß man durch das Erdendasein hindurch den Tod knüpfen können an die Geburt, beziehungsweise an die Empfängnis des Menschen.

[ 15 ] Gerade, wenn man überblickt, wie das Seelisch-Geistige des vorirdischen Daseins sich verhält zu dem, was man als physischen Leib während des Erdenlebens an sich hat, dann kommt man darauf, zu sehen, wie ein Teil des Geistig-Seelischen — ein Teil, den man auch im vorirdischen Dasein hat — eigentlich sich vollständig umwandelt durch die Empfängnis und Geburt hindurch. Es verschwindet eigentlich dieser eine Teil des seelisch-geistigen Daseins. Er ist noch da im vorirdischen Dasein; es ist derjenige Teil, aus dem sich das Denken entwickelt hat. Er ist da im vorirdischen Dasein, aber er verschwindet als Seelisch-Geistiges in dem Zeitpunkt, in dem man die Erde betritt. Reste sind noch da beim ganz kleinen Kinde, aber allmählich verschwindet dieser Teil des seelisch-geistigen Lebens ganz. Was ist mit ihm geschehen?

[ 16 ] Der Teil, der da verschwindet, hat sich umgewandelt in Leben und Form der menschlichen Kopforganisation. Also man verstehe es recht: Es ist nämlich durchaus unrichtig, wenn jemand glaubte, das ganze Seelisch-Geistige des Menschen sei als solches einmal da im vorirdischen Dasein. Dann würde ihm auf der Erde mit dem Leibe, mit dem Körper eine Art Haus gegeben, und dann ziehe das Seelisch-Geistige da hinein und wäre dann dort drinnen. Es ist durchaus unrichtig, für den Teil der Seele, den ich jetzt meine, so zu denken. Dieser Teil klingt ab, verschwindet und verwandelt sich in ein wirklich Physisch-Materielles, das unsere Kopforganisation ist. Leben und Form unserer Kopforganisation ist eine physische Metamorphose eines Geistig-Seelischen unseres vorirdischen Daseins. Sehen Sie sich ihre Kopforganisation an — und ich meine jetzt nicht bloß den Kopf, der einem wegkommt, wenn man enthauptet wird, sondern den Kopf mit seinem ganzen inneren Gehalt, mit allen den Nervensträngen, die da hineingehen, auch mit der Blutzirkulation, insofern sie Kopfblutzirkulation ist -, das alles ist ein Umwandlungsprodukt eines Teiles des vorirdischen Daseins des Menschen. In diese Kopforganisation hinein verschwindet dieser Teil des vorirdischen seelischen Lebens. Und dadurch, daß wir in unserer Kopforganisation eine richtige Umwandlung dessen haben, was wir in unserem vorirdischen Leben haben, deshalb, weil wir in dem menschlichen Haupt ein richtiges physisches Abbild unseres vorirdischen Daseins anschauen, deshalb ist dieser Kopf ein richtiger Spiegel, um Gedanken zu reflektieren. Dadurch ist er es geworden, daß er aus den erlebten Gedanken des vorirdischen Daseins heraus sich geformt und belebt hat als Physisches. Dadurch ist er ein Spiegel für diejenigen Gedanken, die wir uns an den Wahrnehmungen bilden. |

[ 17 ] Dagegen taucht, ich möchte sagen, auf der anderen Seite des Seelenlebens derjenige Teil der Seele auf, der in dem Menschen durch Empfängnis und Geburt schreitet, nicht sich verwandelt in einen physischen Leib, sondern der nur in eine lose Verbindung mit unserer Stoffwechsel- und Gliedmaßenorganisation kommt. Das ist derjenige Teil des Seelenlebens, den man im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein in seinem Abglanz als Wollen erlebt. Vergleichen Sie das Wollen mit dem Vorstellungsleben, mit dem Denken. Im Denkleben sind wir eigentlich als Mensch immer vollbewußt, wenn wir wachen. Ja, Wachen heißt eigentlich, in Vorstellungen leben. So ist es nicht mit dem Wollen. Nehmen Sie das einfachste Wollen. Sie heben einen Arm oder eine Hand. Was haben Sie zunächst davon im wachen Bewußtsein? Sie haben im wachen Bewußtsein zuerst den Gedanken: ich hebe die Hand. —- Dann geht etwas vor, das in den Tiefen Ihrer Menschheitsorganisation sich abspielt. Sie erleben allerdings allerlei unbestimmte Gefühle, auch Emotionsreste und dergleichen, aber das, was Sie wieder klar und völlig wach erleben, ist der Erfolg: der Arm ist aufgehoben. — Sie können es anschauen. Was zwischen diesen beiden Zuständen in den Tiefen des Organismus als die eigentliche Wesenheit des Wollens vor sich geht, bleibt dem gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein so unbewußt, wie die Geschehnisse während des Schlafes. Wir wachen in unserem Gedankenleben; in unserem eigentlichen Willensleben schlafen wir, auch wenn wir wachen.

[ 18 ] Dieses partielle Schlafesleben, das sich in unserem Wollen darstellt, ist also ein Schlaf, der auch unseren Wachzustand durchsetzt. Wir schlafen immer in einem Teil der Seele, auch wenn wir wach sind, in dem Teil der Seele nämlich, in dem das Wollen wurzelt. Das ist aber gerade derjenige Teil der Seele, der nicht in physische Organisation sich umwandelt, wenn er durch Empfängnis und Geburt des Menschen schreitet. Der eine Teil der Seele erscheint wiederum hier in der physischen Welt nach der Geburt als die menschliche Kopforganisation. Der Gliedmaßen- und Stoffwechselorganismus ist nun nicht ein direktes Abbild des anderen Teiles der Seele, sondern der ist aus der physischen Welt herausgeboren, und in einer losen Weise hat sich der andere Teil der Seele mit ihm verbunden, so daß also dieser Gliedmaßen-Stoffwechselorganismus nicht das spiegelt, was die Seele erlebt. Daher schläft der Mensch in bezug auf sein Wollen und auch in bezug auf seinen Gliedmaßen- und Stoffwechselmenschen. Er schläft in dieser Beziehung, auch wenn er wacht. Und für das übersinnliche Anschauen ist dieser Teil der Seele, wenn man ihn im Zusammenhange mit dem physischen Organismus betrachtet, ganz ähnlich, wie das Ich und der astralische Leib, die ganze Seele, vom Einschlafen bis zum Aufwachen im ganzen physischen Organismus sind. Der Mensch ist eben ein viel komplizierteres Wesen, als man gewöhnlich meint. Es gibt gewisse Darstellungen des Übersinnlichen, die reden einfach davon: Wenn der Mensch wacht, dann ist sein Seelisch-Geistiges in seinem physisch-ätherischen Organismus drinnen; wenn er schläft, ist es draußen. — Aber so einfach ist die Sache nicht, denn so kann man höchstens reden in bezug auf die Kopforganisation, nicht aber in bezug auf die übrige Organisation des Menschen. Denn in bezug auf diese übrige Organisation ist ein Teil des Seelenlebens schlafend, auch wenn der Mensch wacht.

[ 19 ] Diesen Teil des Seelenlebens, der da schläft und der nur in ganz bestimmten Vorstellungen aus dunklen Tiefen der menschlichen Organisation heraufschlägt, diesen Teil bekommt man als Anschauung in dem Moment vor sich, wo man bis zur Intuition aufsteigt, denn diese Intuition ist, wie ich dargestellt habe, ein Ergebnis von Willensübungen. Man lernt dadurch in das hineinschauen, was sonst im Wachleben immer verhüllt ist, man lernt in die Mysterien des menschlichen Wollens hineinschauen. Auch für das Wachleben ist das menschliche Wollen ein Mysterium, das zum Teil die Inspiration offenbart, das aber erst die Intuition enthüllt. Und so paradox es klingt: Wenn es einmal der Mensch dahin gebracht hat, die wahre Wesenheit seines eigenen Wollens zu durchschauen, so durchschaut er auch die göttlich-geistige Welt. — In der Kopforganisation steckt in physischer Verwandlung die geistige Welt; da ist überhaupt nicht viel von geistiger Welt zu entdecken. Der menschliche Kopf ist eigentlich das Ungeistigste am Menschen. Aber in der übrigen Organisation steckt das unveränderte Seelenleben, wie es auch ist, wenn der Mensch im vorirdischen Dasein ohne eine physische und ohne eine ätherische Organisation ist. In diesem, was unter dem Wollen lebt, da ist der Mensch auch zwischen Geburt und Tod durchaus Geist, so daß man durch die Intuition sehen kann, wie es nun mit diesem Geist ist.

[ 20 ] Dieser Geist, der sich als die dem Wollen zugrunde liegende Wesenheit für die Intuition enthüllt, stellt sich dar als der Sammler für alles, was man an intellektuellen Seelenarbeiten und -impulsen, an moralischen Neigungen und Impulsen in der Seele während des Erdendaseins durchgemacht hat. Das wird, wie ich schon einmal von einem anderen Gesichtspunkte aus bemerkt habe, der jüngere Teil der Seele, der Seele, die sich innerhalb unseres gegenwärtigen Erdendaseins embryonal verhält; es wird derjenige Teil, der im Anfange eines Werdens ist. Schaut man diesen Teil der Seele, dann schaut man damit hin auf etwas im menschlichen Inneren, das dem Tode entgegenlebt so, um durch den Tod erst richtig geboren zu werden, wie die Seele im vorirdischen Dasein dem Erdendasein entgegenlebt, um durch Konzeption und Geburt in diesem Erdenleben geboren zu werden. Unter unserem Wollen lebt der seelische Embryo, der, wenn man ihn in seinem Wesen erkennt, sein embryonales Leben darstellt und dem man es ebenso ansieht, daß er im Tode geboren wird zu einem neuen geistigen Leben, wie man es der Menschenseele im vorirdischen Dasein ansieht, daß sie mit der Geburt in das Erdenleben eintritt. So handelt es sich also darum, daß man zur Erkenntnis des physischen Daseins zunächst innerhalb des übersinnlichen Daseins die dem Willen zugrunde liegende Seelenwesenheit kennenlernt. Damit haben wir uns wiederum einen Schritt dem Problem des Todes genähert. — Ich werde diese Betrachtung im letzten, vierten Teile abschließen, und sie wird uns dann am nächsten Tage in eine Zusammenfassung des Problems des Todes im Zusammenhange mit dem Christus-Problem führen.


[ 21 ] Man überschaut durch eine solche Erkenntnis, wie der ewige Wesenskern des Menschen seine Evolution hat durch voriridisches Dasein, irdisches Dasein und Dasein nach dem Tode. Vor der unbefangenen Betrachtung ergibt sich aber nun ein gewaltiges Rätsel. Es ergibt sich dieses Rätsel dadurch, daß man hinschaut auf die Erwerbung des IchBewußtseins. Nun wird Ihnen aus dem gestrigen Vortrage hervorgegangen sein, daß das Ich-Bewußstsein abhängig ist vom physischen Organismus, denn es entsteht ja im Laufe der menschlichen Erdenentwikkelung erst in dem Augenblicke, wo der Mensch im gewöhnlichen Bewußtsein sich lediglich seines physischen Organismus bedienen kann. Gerade hier lehrt die imaginative, inspirierte und intuitive Erkenntnis mit aller Deutlichkeit, daß wir als Menschen zunächst unser Ich-Bewußtsein hier in der physischen Welt erwerben zwischen Geburt und Tod, und daß die Erwerbung dieses Ich-Bewußtseins verbunden ist mit dem Gebrauch des physischen Leibes. Der aber entfällt uns mit dem Tode.

[ 22 ] Was die Menschheit der Erde vor der Entwickelung des Ich-Bewußtseins als seelisches Leben erfahren hatte, das kann seiner ewigen Wesenheit nach einer solchen Anschauung, wie ich sie auch heute wieder charakterisiert habe, nur so erscheinen, daß es geht vom vorirdischen Dasein durch irdisches Dasein zum nachirdischen Dasein, was ja mit anderen Worten heißt: durch wiederholte Erdenleben. Von dem aber, was als Ich-Bewußtsein erworben wird, liegt zunächst die völlige Bestimmtheit vor: Dieses Ich-Bewußtsein erwirbst du dir durch den Gebrauch des physischen Leibes, ja, du lerntest erst im Laufe der Menschheitsentwickelung — in der Zeit, als auch das Mysterium von Golgatha in diese Menschheitsentwickelung eingetreten ist — deinen physischen Leib so gebrauchen, daß das Ich-Bewußtsein in dir aufleuchtete.

[ 23 ] Daher ist es ebenso gewiß, daß, indem wir durch den physischen Organismus zum Ich-Bewußtsein kommen, wir fürchten müssen, daß uns dieses Ich-Bewußtsein mit dem Tode entfällt. Das ist eines der Probleme des Todes. Wenn wir auch schon alles das, was sich als ewiger Wesenskern uns enthüllt im Denken, Fühlen und Wollen, in seiner Verwandlung sehen als dasjenige, was im Denken nur im Spiegelbilde erscheint und eigentlich das verschwundene Seelenleben ist, das sich in die Kopforganisation verwandelt hat, wenn wir im Wollen den Abglanz desjenigen sehen, was im übrigen Menschenorganismus ein seelisches Embryonalleben führt, um mit dem Tode erst geboren zu werden, wenn wir in dieser Beziehung durchaus das seelische Leben durchschauen können, dann muß uns angst werden, und zwar nicht angst aus einer Gemütseigenschaft untergeordneter Art heraus, sondern ängstlich aus Erkenntnis müssen wir werden, wenn es sich darum handelt: Was bringen wir denn von dem physischen Organismus durch den Tod hindurch? - Denn der physische Leib zerfällt mit dem Tode. Haben wir durch ihn unser Ich-Bewußtsein erworben, dann entsteht die Ängstlichkeit, die durchaus eine wissenschaftlich begründete Ängstlichkeit ist: Wie bringen wir unser Ich-Bewußtsein durch den Tod?

[ 24 ] Diese Frage löst nur das Mysterium von Golgatha. Niemals könnte eine Menschheit das Ich-Bewußtsein durch den Tod durchtragen, wenn sich nicht dieses im physischen Leibe entwickelte Ich-Bewußtsein mit dem Christus verbindet, der es hält, wenn es mit dem physischen Leibe von der Menschenseele abschmelzen würde. Erworben ist das Ich-Bewußtsein durch den physischen Leib. Im Tode würde es mit dem physischen Leibe von der Menschenseele abschmelzen, wäre nicht im Sinne des Pauluswortes «Nicht ich, sondern der Christus in mir» dieses Ich mit dem Christus-Wesen verbunden; denn der Christus nimmt es und trägt es durch den Tod hindurch. - Wie das im einzelnen geschieht, das soll in den weiteren Vorträgen geschildert und gezeigt werden, wie der Christus diejenige Wesenheit ist, die uns unser Ich-Bewußtsein hindurchretten läßt durch die Todespforte.

[ 25 ] Erst einer anthroposophischen Forschung, wie sie hier gemeint ist, enthüllt sich die ganze Bedeutung des Christus-Problems für das menschliche Leben. Fängt ja doch die Bedeutung einer solchen Erkenntnis schon mit der gewöhnlichen Philosophie an! Diese gewöhnliche Philosophie wird erst dann zu einem inneren Leben erweckt und erlangt erst eine Erkenntnis ihrer selbst, wenn sie aus der imaginativen Erkenntnis heraus gespeist werden kann. Sehen Sie das an, was ich heute im Anfange meines Vortrages Ihnen dargelegt habe. Indem man durch Meditation zum imaginativen Erkennen hinüberschreitet, geht man gewissermaßen über einen Abgrund. Das Denken hört auf, ein Nichtdenken ist zwischen dem gewöhnlichen Denken und dem aktiven, lebensvollen, imaginativen Denken; ein Nichtdenken ist dazwischen. Dieses Nichtdenken haben einzelne Philosophen gefühlt, zum Beispiel Augustinus und Descartes, aber sie haben es nicht richtig deuten können. Sie sprechen von dem Zweifel, der im Beginne des Philosophierens liegt. Dieser Zweifel, von dem Augustinus und Descartes reden, ist nur die ins gewöhnliche Bewußtsein hereingerufene Reflexion dieses Zustandes, in dem man ist im Nichtdenken zwischen dem gewöhnlichen Denken und dem imaginativen Denken. Weil weder Augustinus noch Descartes in dieses eigentliche Nichtdenken ihre Seele eingetaucht hatten, kamen sie nicht auf das wahre Erlebnis, sondern nur auf die Rückspiegelung dessen, was man erlebt, wenn einem zwischen dem gewöhnlichen Denken und dem imaginativen Denken einfach das Denken überhaupt entfällt, namentlich das Erinnerungsdenken entfällt. Der Zweifel des Augustinus und des Descartes ist nur das Reflexbild dieses Erlebnisses, das erst beim Übergang in das imaginative Bewußtsein auftritt, ins gewöhnliche Bewußtsein herein. So kann man eigentlich das, was undeutlich in der bloßen Ideenphilosophie auftritt, richtig verstehen, wenn man es im Lichte der imaginativen Philosophie betrachtet.

[ 26 ] Ebenso haben Sie gesehen, wie man durch die Erkenntnis, durch die man sich in den eigenen Ätherleib hineinlebt, dasjenige, was Lebenslauf ist, als eine Einheit vor sich hat, wie dasjenige nebeneinander dasteht, was in der Zeit wird als Lebenslauf. Was man sonst nacheinander sieht, das sieht man durch diese Erkenntnis ebenso nebeneinander wie sonst die Dinge des Raumes. Das hat zum Beispiel Bergson gefühlt, indem er seine Idee von der «Dauer» ausgebildet hat. Diese Idee von der Dauer spielt in der Bergsonschen Philosophie eine große Rolle; aber so, wie er sie hat, ist es nur eine Ahnung von dem, was die Wahrheit ist. Die Wahrheit ist die imaginative Anschauung der Zeit als eines Nebeneinander. Bergson kommt nur zur abstrakten Empfindung davon, daß, wenn man sich tiefer in die Sache hineinlebt, man über diese Welt jetzt, aber in der Gegenwart, hinauskommt, so daß man die Dauer als solche erlebt. Da aber Bergson nicht den Boden einer anthroposophischen Erkenntnis betreten will, so kommt er auch nur wieder zu einem Reflexbilde dessen, was man mit imaginativer Erkenntnis in bezug auf die Zeit als dieses Nebeneinander erlebt, und er nennt dieses Etwas, was man so als Reflexbild erlebt, die Dauer, durée. Sie spielt eine große Rolle bei Bergson. Überall, wo man die Philosophie anpackt, zeigt sich: Substanz, Lebendigkeit wird sich Philosophie erst wieder erringen, wenn diese Substanz auf die Weise erfaßt wird, wie sie auch heute wieder erfaßt wurde.

[ 27 ] Daß auch Kosmologie und Religionserkenntnis dadurch Substanz erhalten, habe ich schon angedeutet und werde ich auch in den nächsten Tagen im Zusammenhange mit dem Christus-Problem weiter ausführen. Da wird sich zeigen, wie im Grunde genommen für den modernen Menschen alles höhere Erkennen für seine eigene Wesenheit ein Appell ist an das Mysterium von Golgatha. Und in dem Wollen dieses Mysteriums von Golgatha, indem die Christus-Wesenheit wiederum in ihrer vollen, übersinnlichen Realität hereintritt in das Menschenbewußtsein, wird auch durch eine spirituelle Philosophie, durch eine spirituelle Kosmologie die moderne übersinnliche Erkenntnis zu einer Grundlegung nicht nur des übersinnlichen Lebens überhaupt, sondern des spirituellen Christentums führen.

The event of death in relation to Christ

[ 1 ] As I move on to describe to you in the next lectures the problem of human death, the immortality of the soul in connection with Christ, and the development of Christianity, it will be necessary today for me to revisit some of what I have already presented here from a different perspective.

[ 2 ] When we look at the two states that alternate in everyday human life, the waking state and the sleeping state, we are initially confronted with the fact that, during the sleeping state, the human being has not only switched off his sense perception, but has also, in a sense, extinguished what he experiences in his soul life as thinking, feeling, and willing. Everything that we summarize as our self when we are awake is actually extinguished during sleep.

[ 3 ] What is extinguished here is now reignited piece by piece through imagination, inspiration, and intuition. In order to bring forth imaginative thinking, meditation must first turn to ordinary thinking. I have described how thoughts can be used to attain imaginative knowledge through meditation. With regard to the problem of death in particular, it is necessary to clarify once again what is experienced during the process of initiation, because only then does it become clear what relationship the human being has to his physical body and to his spiritual and soul nature at the moment of death.

[ 4 ] When one treats thinking in the way I have described, one first experiences that, by feeling oneself outside the physical organism with one's whole soul, one cannot actually think for a while. Thinking ceases for a short time, so to speak. It takes a certain amount of courage, inner energy, and also a certain presence of mind to experience this moment in full awareness. But then one notices how, as one awakens, one experiences a much stronger soul activity than one had before. Thinking begins again. The progress is such that one first has ordinary consciousness — I emphasize that this ordinary consciousness is retained during true imagination — but one must always live one's way over into the other state and then live one's way back again. In this other state, however — for ordinary consciousness one naturally retains the ordinary earthly image — in this other state, which one can enter, one loses, as it were, the ability to produce thoughts; but with further meditation a stronger activity arises, and one now has a stronger inner experience of thoughts. And while for ordinary consciousness thoughts are experienced as mostly thoughts about the external sensory world and memories, dull thoughts arising from all kinds of emotional experiences and emotions, one now has a way of thinking through which one can take into consciousness, in the manner I have already described, one's own life course here on earth from birth until now in active thoughts, and it is a deeper layer of the life course that is involved here. I have already said that these are not the memories that one has in ordinary consciousness, but rather a deeper layer. One actually sees into an etheric process that builds up, permeates, and has always permeated the physical organism. Everything that has taken place since birth, in which growth was brought about in the physical organism, the individual organs were formed plastically, our thinking abilities, our feeling abilities, and our volitional abilities were brought up from the depths of the organization, everything that has taken place in connection with a real life that is otherwise hidden from consciousness, shoots up in the form of active, inwardly experienced substantial thoughts. In a sense, one passes from ordinary thinking across an abyss to a thinking that experiences one's own etheric body.

[ 5 ] When revealing imaginative thinking in this way, one must pay very close attention to what one loses during the moments when one is in this imaginative thinking. The first thing one loses is actually one's memories. You have memories in your ordinary consciousness, but alongside your ordinary consciousness, this other consciousness, the imaginative consciousness, develops. In this consciousness, there are no memories. I ask you to clarify this for yourself with the following example: Even when you remember, as in all experiences of ordinary consciousness, you actually live in the present. You perceive what is present before you, you think thoughts about the present, and when you remember the past, you also have an image in the present moment that only refers to the past. So ordinary consciousness experiences the present. Imaginative consciousness experiences one's own life in such a way that the individual parts are seen at once, as if the things that are in time were in space. The events that one experiences in the thirtieth, eighteenth, tenth, seventh, and fifth years are experienced simultaneously, just as one experiences one thing next to another simultaneously. Time becomes like space. The events that one has experienced in the thirtieth, eighteenth, tenth, seventh, and fifth years stand there before the soul; they stand side by side.

[ 6 ] This is how these experiences of imaginative consciousness differ from those of ordinary consciousness. Ordinary consciousness lives in the present; it has only memory for the past. Imaginative consciousness lives through times, but in such a way that the times stand before the soul all at once. Memories, remembrances, I said, are the first things to be lost. This is indeed the case. What helps us so much in ordinary consciousness, namely that we have a memory, that we have memories, is not available to us in imaginative consciousness. Of course, because you have the natural human being beside you, you retain the memory capacity of the ordinary human being as it was; but you have no memory of what is new to you, that is, the ordinary human life course. Suppose an imaginative person experiences his life at a certain moment. In three days he wants to experience it again. He cannot remember what he experienced today. He must perform the same actions that led him to experience his life. He must practice again to achieve this experience. Just as a real physical thing cannot simply be there for you to remember, but you have to go back to it, so too you cannot simply recall what you are experiencing now, namely your etheric body, through memory alone, because it is real; it must be brought forth anew again and again.

[ 7 ] This is something that disappoints many who do such soul exercises. They tackle their exercises, achieve something, and can see something. They believe that this vision will now remain with them, that they can bring it forth again and again in their memory. They cannot, and they are disappointed. Efforts must be made again and again to produce the experiences inwardly anew. Here is an example. Suppose someone who speaks from the newer science of meditation gives a lecture. He gives it in such a way that he has not translated everything into abstract ideas, but speaks from living observation. Therefore, he cannot prepare himself by memorizing something he has in his mind. One can memorize things that relate to the physical world, but one cannot memorize things that relate to an imaginative consciousness, because these must be produced anew again and again. One can also prepare oneself, but this preparation is a kind of practice.

[ 8 ] It is like acquiring a skill through practice. In the same way, meditation and practice help you to bring forth what you want from the supersensible world. But if it is to truly come from the spiritual world, it must be produced in the immediate moment. It must arise in the immediate moment. Then its expression and formulation will have the immediate resonance of the spiritual. Please forgive me for bringing this up as something personal. I have already spoken about a topic thirty or forty times. It does not help me at all to speak about a topic for the thirtieth time. It is just as difficult as the first time; it is always the same process. What is needed in order to have a basis for this production is concentration and calm, so that production can emerge from a calm soul. Perhaps it is not necessary, but to make myself clear, I would like to remark that in this respect an audience is often downright cruel to someone who is expected to present something from the spiritual world, in that - of course, those present are always exempt - what may go quite well in a professorial lecture, in a spiritual lecture all kinds of listeners come and ask all kinds of questions and take no consideration whatsoever of the fact that in the next moment things are to be brought out of the spiritual world.

[ 9 ] This is how I have tried to describe to you the subjective experience of imagining. By knowing within oneself how this active, living thinking, which now has one's own life as its content, emerges, one also knows what ordinary thinking is in its essence. Now, from the imaginative consciousness, one can look back on this ordinary thinking, and one comes to the realization that this ordinary thinking has no reality in itself. In reality, every human being imagines. They imagine unconsciously and have this substantial thinking within themselves. But because they have not sufficiently strengthened their soul forces, they are too weak in spirit to bring what is within them into consciousness, and so when they want to think, they always grasp their physical body. This becomes the basis for ordinary thinking. But what actually arises there? Well, when this inner activity, which is unconscious imagining, also turns to the physical organism in ordinary consciousness, it slips into this physical organism. That which one does not know, which remains unconscious, which then shines forth in imaginative cognition as active thinking, slips into the physical organism in ordinary consciousness, makes use of it, and is now thrown back as inner mirror images as that which it is and which it does not know because it remains unconscious. These are ordinary thoughts. They have as little reality as mirror images have reality in relation to the things standing in front of the mirror. Something is reflected back to us from our physical body, and these are the thoughts that enter ordinary consciousness—merely mirror images. Therefore, those who experience these thoughts experience nothing substantial in them. There is no juice and no power in these thoughts of ordinary consciousness. On the other hand, the moment active thinking enters into imagination, there is substance in thinking. In every imagined thought there is substance, there is juice and power. We know that with this imagined thinking we live in a power such as that which has made us from children into adult human beings.

[ 10 ] It is precisely the transition from ordinary reality to etheric reality that occurs when one struggles through to imaginative thinking. Through this, however, one now gets the first glimpse of an understanding of the physical body. One sees the physical body as a mirror apparatus that reflects one's thoughts back. This is how one begins to approach the problem of death, for until one has one's physical body as an object, one cannot approach the problem of death. If the human being still exists after death, then it is certainly not present in its physical body. And so, if one wants to solve the problem of death during life, one must have the physical body outside oneself and view it objectively, as one has it relatively in death, beside oneself, outside oneself. This is the characteristic of how one arrives at the first step toward a solution to the problem of death. What is needed to go further will be presented in the second part of our present consideration.


[ 11 ] Through such a realization as I have described to you, human beings come into a position where they can truly judge how the soul-spiritual relates to the physical in human beings. Only by means of the imaginative and subsequent methods of supersensible perception can one objectively survey the physical organism, the etheric organism, and the soul-spiritual; only then can one also recognize how the two parts relate to each other in the various stages of life. It is therefore of immeasurable importance to bear in mind that in the supersensible knowledge of which I am speaking here, the human being retains the ordinary consciousness that he otherwise has in waking life, alongside all other experiences of knowledge. If, therefore, already in imaginative consciousness, you have something from your life before you, for example, the way in which, when you were a child of nine or ten years of age, certain predispositions manifested themselves out of the conditions of your growth, how moral inclinations and so on appeared, you look at this by having before you the unity of the physical and the soul in this ninth or tenth year of life. You look at what happened in the organism during the ninth or tenth year of life. But you must also maintain your ordinary consciousness, which means one must now look at the ninth or tenth year of life, which conveys something that otherwise remains completely unconscious, and one must immediately find the transition to this through willpower, as in ordinary consciousness, to imagine the memories that refer one back in the very ordinary way to one's ninth or tenth year of life. One must always be able to compare the one with the other: higher consciousness and ordinary consciousness. Just as one passes from one thought to another in ordinary consciousness, so one must pass from what is experienced in imaginative consciousness to what is experienced in ordinary consciousness.

[ 12 ] This characteristic of the higher consciousness referred to here is particularly important. All those who judge anthroposophical research only from the outside often believe that what appears as imagination can be dismissed as the conscious content of a visionary or a hallucinator. However, one must recognize the radical difference between true imagination and vision. Vision does indeed provide the human being with pictorial content, but the human being is completely absorbed in his vision. While he has this vision, his consciousness has been transformed into this vision, and he cannot arbitrarily switch back and forth between the vision and ordinary consciousness. The person who imagines, on the other hand, has not transformed his ordinary consciousness into a vision, but has enriched his ordinary consciousness with imagination. The imagined has simply been added to what one already has in ordinary consciousness. This is why the imaginer rejects the ordinary visionary experience, but he can also understand the life situation of the visionary. For whoever has attained the level of knowledge referred to here can see very clearly how the soul is active within, how it makes use of the physical organism so that it reflects back its thoughts. The person who imagines and is inspired knows the nature of the relationship between the soul and the physical body in ordinary normal consciousness. That is why he can also judge the visionary. In the case of the visionary, the soul has not been freed from the physical body. The person who imagines knows what it means for the soul to be free from the physical body, because they have actually taken the soul out of the physical body and driven it to activity. But when they look at the visionary, they see that the soul is more deeply embedded in the physical body than it is when it perceives the external world in ordinary consciousness.

[ 13 ] This is the difference between the imaginer and the visionary: The visionary delves deeper into his bodily functions than one does in ordinary life, while the imaginer actually steps out of the physical organism, and the ordinary constitution of the soul in the physical organism remains consciously preserved. If one does not understand this difference in all its eminent significance, one will always confuse what one has beside oneself in the sharp control of ordinary thinking, namely imagination, with the visionary life, which has no control beside itself, where the human being simply descends deeper into his physical body, so that what appears to him as his visions are perhaps only the indispositions of his liver or stomach that he already has in ordinary life, but now he has immersed himself in these indispositions. The imaginer, on the other hand, has nothing to do with his organs in his imaginations, but consciously looks at a part of the soul that was previously unconscious. Thus, imaginative consciousness does not lead away from ordinary consciousness to something visionary, as some believe, but rather the training, the exercise in imaginative consciousness, is precisely an antidote to all uncontrollable visionary phenomena. One does not develop in the direction of visions, but in the opposite direction: to become free from the physical organism, to be able to use the soul, initially the etheric, in the physical organism in the imagination itself in order to arrive at a substantial experience. In ordinary life, the substantial is the physical body, and what one has beyond the physical body are mirror images in thought that have no substance, no inner real activity. It is precisely in the contrast between the supersensible visions, as they are meant here, and the visionary life that what is meant here by the imagined, the inspired, and intuition in higher consciousness can become particularly clear. Once again, you see how, through such insight, one gradually learns what the relationship is between the soul-spiritual and the physical-corporeal. One understands how a visionary life arises when, during earthly existence, the soul descends more deeply into the physical body. But one also understands what it means to be outside one's body and what the soul experiences when one is outside one's body. Through this psychic-spiritual experience outside one's body, one senses and experiences in advance how one must live when one no longer has a physical body. It is a matter of solving the problem of death within physical earthly existence by living in an existence in which one is when one no longer has a physical body. — I ask you to understand that it is my endeavor to show how this turning toward the problem of death can be characterized with all the caution of thinking, for the problem of death is treated in many ways today in a layman's manner. But it should become clear how, precisely in anthroposophical research, all the caution of thinking that can be demanded is actually applied when dealing with this problem. That is why I have not shied away from making today's lecture a little more precise, so that there is a good basis for understanding the problem of death. More on this will follow in the third part of today's consideration.


[ 14 ] When, in ascending to imaginative, inspired knowledge and so on, one gains a view of the soul-spiritual on the one hand and the physical-corporeal on the other, one can, as I said, see in every situation of human life the relationship between the soul-spiritual and the physical-corporeal. A few days ago, I characterized how, in descending from the soul-spiritual world, human beings work on the formation of their own physical organism, how this then falls away from them, and how they find it again in a different way through conception and birth. I went on to describe how the problem of birth appears when viewed from the perspective of pre-earthly existence. Let us now take a closer look at earthly existence, for it is this earthly existence that stands between the event of birth and the event of death, and if we want to gradually come to an understanding of death, we must be able to link death to birth, or rather to the conception of the human being, through earthly existence.

[ 15 ] Precisely when we survey how the soul-spiritual aspect of pre-earthly existence relates to what we have as the physical body during earthly life, we come to see how a part of the spiritual-soul aspect — a part that we also have in pre-earthly existence — actually undergoes a complete transformation through conception and birth. This part of the soul-spiritual existence actually disappears. It is still there in pre-earthly existence; it is the part from which thinking developed. It is there in pre-earthly existence, but it disappears as soul-spiritual at the moment one enters the earth. Remnants are still present in very young children, but gradually this part of the soul-spiritual life disappears completely. What has happened to it?

[ 16 ] The part that disappears has been transformed into the life and form of the human head organization. So let us understand this correctly: it is completely wrong to believe that the entire soul-spiritual life of the human being once existed as such in pre-earthly existence. Then it would have been given a kind of house on earth in the form of the body, and the soul-spiritual life would have moved into it and would then have been inside. It is completely incorrect to think this way about the part of the soul I am referring to now. This part fades away, disappears, and transforms into something truly physical and material, which is our head organization. The life and form of our head organization is a physical metamorphosis of the spiritual-soul aspect of our pre-earthly existence. Look at your head organization — and I don't just mean the head that comes off when you are decapitated, but the head with all its inner contents, with all the nerve strands that go into it, including the blood circulation, insofar as it is head blood circulation — all of this is a transformation product of a part of the pre-earthly existence of the human being. This part of pre-earthly soul life disappears into this head organization. And because we have a proper transformation in our head organization of what we have in our pre-earthly life, because we see in the human head a proper physical image of our pre-earthly existence, this head is a proper mirror for reflecting thoughts. This is how it came to be that it formed and came to life as something physical out of the thoughts experienced in pre-earthly existence. This makes it a mirror for the thoughts we form from our perceptions.

[ 17 ] On the other hand, I would say that on the other side of the soul life there appears that part of the soul which, through conception and birth, passes into the human being, not transforming itself into a physical body, but only entering into a loose connection with our metabolism and limb organization. This is the part of the soul life that we experience in ordinary consciousness in its reflection as will. Compare the will with the life of imagination, with thinking. In our thinking life, we are actually always fully conscious as human beings when we are awake. Yes, being awake actually means living in ideas. This is not the case with the will. Take the simplest example of the will. You lift an arm or a hand. What do you initially have of this in your waking consciousness? In your waking consciousness, you first have the thought: I am lifting my hand. Then something happens in the depths of your human organization. You experience all kinds of vague feelings, including residual emotions and the like, but what you experience clearly and fully awake is the result: your arm is raised. — You can see it. What goes on between these two states in the depths of the organism as the actual essence of volition remains as unconscious to ordinary consciousness as the events that occur during sleep. We are awake in our thought life; in our actual volitional life we are asleep, even when we are awake.

[ 18 ] This partial sleep life, which manifests itself in our will, is therefore a sleep that also permeates our waking state. We always sleep in one part of the soul, even when we are awake, namely in the part of the soul in which the will is rooted. But this is precisely the part of the soul that does not transform itself into physical organization when it passes through conception and birth. One part of the soul reappears here in the physical world after birth as the human head organization. The limb and metabolic organism is not a direct image of the other part of the soul, but is born out of the physical world, and the other part of the soul has loosely connected itself to it, so that this limb-metabolic organism does not reflect what the soul experiences. Therefore, the human being sleeps in relation to his will and also in relation to his limb and metabolic human being. He sleeps in this relationship even when he is awake. And for supersensible observation, this part of the soul, when viewed in connection with the physical organism, is very similar to the I and the astral body, the whole soul, from falling asleep to waking up in the entire physical organism. Man is simply a much more complicated being than is usually thought. There are certain descriptions of the supersensible that simply say: when a person is awake, their soul and spirit are inside their physical-etheric organism; when they are asleep, they are outside. But the matter is not so simple, for one can speak in this way at most in relation to the head organization, but not in relation to the rest of the human organization. For in relation to this rest of the organization, a part of the soul life is asleep even when the human being is awake.

[ 19 ] This part of the soul life, which is asleep and which only emerges in very specific ideas from the dark depths of the human organization, can be perceived at the moment when one rises to intuition, for this intuition is, as I have shown, the result of exercises of the will. Through this, one learns to look into what is otherwise always veiled in waking life; one learns to look into the mysteries of human will. Human will is also a mystery in waking life, revealing some of its inspiration, but only intuition can unveil it completely. And as paradoxical as it may sound, once a person has reached the point of understanding the true nature of their own will, they also understand the divine-spiritual world. — In the head organization, the spiritual world is contained in physical transformation; there is not much of the spiritual world to discover there at all. The human head is actually the most unspiritual part of the human being. But in the rest of the organization lies the unaltered soul life, as it is when humans exist in the pre-earthly state without a physical or etheric organization. In this, which lives beneath the will, humans are also entirely spirit between birth and death, so that one can see through intuition what this spirit is like.

[ 20 ] This spirit, which reveals itself to intuition as the essence underlying the will, presents itself as the collector of everything that has been experienced in the soul during earthly existence in terms of intellectual soul work and impulses, moral inclinations and impulses. As I have already noted from another point of view, this becomes the younger part of the soul, the soul that behaves embryonically within our present earthly existence; it becomes the part that is at the beginning of becoming. When we look at this part of the soul, we are looking at something within the human being that lives toward death in order to be truly born through death, just as the soul in its pre-earthly existence lives toward earthly existence in order to be born through conception and birth in this earthly life. The soul embryo lives beneath our will, and when we recognize it in its essence, we see that it represents embryonic life and that it will be born into a new spiritual life in death, just as we see that the human soul enters earthly life at birth in its pre-earthly existence. So it is a matter of first learning about the soul nature underlying the will within the supersensible existence in order to gain knowledge of physical existence. This brings us one step closer to the problem of death. — I will conclude this consideration in the last, fourth part, and it will then lead us tomorrow to a summary of the problem of death in connection with the Christ problem.


[ 21 ] Through such knowledge, one can see how the eternal core of the human being evolves through pre-earthly existence, earthly existence, and existence after death. However, when viewed impartially, a tremendous mystery arises. This mystery arises when we look at the acquisition of ego-consciousness. Now, you will have gathered from yesterday's lecture that ego-consciousness is dependent on the physical organism, for it arises in the course of human evolution on earth only at the moment when the human being, in ordinary consciousness, can make use of his physical organism alone. It is precisely here that imaginative, inspired, and intuitive knowledge teaches us with all clarity that we as human beings first acquire our ego-consciousness here in the physical world between birth and death, and that the acquisition of this ego-consciousness is connected with the use of the physical body. But this is lost to us with death.

[ 22 ] What humanity on earth experienced as soul life before the development of ego-consciousness can, according to the view I have characterized again today, only appear to be eternal in nature in such a way that it passes from pre-earthly existence through earthly existence to post-earthly existence, which in other words means through repeated earth lives. But what is acquired as ego-consciousness is, in the first instance, completely certain: You acquire this ego-consciousness through the use of the physical body; indeed, it was only in the course of human evolution—at the time when the mystery of Golgotha entered into this human evolution—that you learned to use your physical body in such a way that ego-consciousness dawned within you.

[ 23 ] It is therefore equally certain that, since we attain self-consciousness through the physical organism, we must fear that this self-consciousness will be lost to us at death. This is one of the problems of death. Even if we see everything that reveals itself to us as the eternal core of our being in thinking, feeling, and willing, in its transformation as that which appears in thinking only as a mirror image and is actually the vanished soul life that has been transformed into the head organization, if we see in the will the reflection of that which leads a spiritual embryonic life in the rest of the human organism, only to be born with death, if we can see through the spiritual life in this relationship, then we must become fearful, and not fearful out of a subordinate disposition of the mind, but fearful out of knowledge, when it comes to the question: What do we bring through death from the physical organism? For the physical body decays with death. If we have acquired our ego-consciousness through it, then anxiety arises, which is entirely scientifically justified: How do we bring our ego-consciousness through death?

[ 24 ] Only the mystery of Golgotha can solve this question. Humanity could never carry its self-consciousness through death if the self-consciousness developed in the physical body did not connect with Christ, who holds it when it would melt away from the human soul with the physical body. The ego-consciousness is acquired through the physical body. In death, it would melt away from the human soul with the physical body if it were not connected with the Christ being in the sense of Paul's words, “Not I, but Christ in me”; for Christ takes it and carries it through death. How this happens in detail will be described and shown in further lectures, how Christ is the being who allows our ego consciousness to pass through the gate of death.

[ 25 ] Only anthroposophical research, as meant here, reveals the full significance of the Christ problem for human life. But the significance of such knowledge begins with ordinary philosophy! This ordinary philosophy is only awakened to an inner life and only attains knowledge of itself when it can be nourished by imaginative knowledge. Consider what I explained to you at the beginning of my lecture today. When one passes over into imaginative knowledge through meditation, one crosses an abyss, so to speak. Thinking ceases; there is a non-thinking between ordinary thinking and active, living, imaginative thinking; a non-thinking lies between them. Individual philosophers, such as Augustine and Descartes, have sensed this non-thinking, but they have not been able to interpret it correctly. They speak of the doubt that lies at the beginning of philosophy. This doubt, of which Augustine and Descartes speak, is only the reflection, brought into ordinary consciousness, of the state in which one is in non-thinking between ordinary thinking and imaginative thinking. Because neither Augustine nor Descartes had immersed their souls in this actual non-thinking, they did not arrive at the true experience, but only at the reflection of what one experiences when, between ordinary thinking and imaginative thinking, thinking itself simply falls away, namely the thinking of memory. The doubt of Augustine and Descartes is only the reflection of this experience, which only appears in ordinary consciousness during the transition to imaginative consciousness. Thus, what appears unclear in mere idea philosophy can actually be understood correctly when viewed in the light of imaginative philosophy.

[ 26 ] You have also seen how, through the insight that allows you to live your way into your own etheric body, you have before you as a unity that which is the course of life, how that which becomes in time as the course of life stands side by side. What one otherwise sees one after the other, one sees through this insight as standing side by side, just as one sees things in space. Bergson, for example, felt this when he developed his idea of “duration.” This idea of duration plays a major role in Bergson's philosophy, but as he has it, it is only a hint of what the truth is. The truth is the imaginative perception of time as a juxtaposition. Bergson only arrives at the abstract feeling that, if one lives more deeply into the matter, one goes beyond this world now, but in the present, so that one experiences duration as such. But since Bergson does not want to enter the realm of anthroposophical knowledge, he merely returns to a reflex image of what one experiences with imaginative knowledge in relation to time as this juxtaposition, and he calls this something that one experiences as a reflex image duration, durée. It plays a major role in Bergson's philosophy. Wherever one approaches philosophy, it becomes apparent that substance and vitality will only be regained by philosophy when this substance is grasped in the way it has been grasped again today.

[ 27 ] I have already indicated that cosmology and religious knowledge also gain substance through this, and I will elaborate on this in the next few days in connection with the Christ problem. It will become clear how, for modern human beings, all higher knowledge is essentially an appeal to the mystery of Golgotha for their own essence. And in the will of this mystery of Golgotha, in which the Christ being once again enters human consciousness in its full, supersensible reality, modern supersensible knowledge will also lead, through a spiritual philosophy, through a spiritual cosmology, to a foundation not only for supersensible life in general, but for spiritual Christianity.